Ok, for several years now, I’ve wanted to participate in Living Proof Ministries’, Siesta Scripture Memory Team. The first year I saw it on the LPM blog, they were already a good portion through the year. So, I decided to subscribe so I wouldn’t miss the notification next time. Then I forgot all about it the next year until I stumbled across the email notification in my inbox… which, of course, ended up well after the start date. Ugh. Yes, I get a ridiculous amount of email, which sometimes takes me a bit to sort through, but I am fully convinced I don’t receive all the email notifications from LPM in my inbox… maybe they hide in my spam folder? Not to mention, December 31st is my deceased son’s birth/death anniversary and January 3rd is the anniversary of his funeral. So, it’s not unusual for me to be lax in checking my email (let alone blogs I subscribe to) from mid-December through the first week in January.
Well, this morning I got this post in my inbox (on my phone) and I flipped out because for once I was seeing it in January instead of a month or two down the road. Oh how I sang the praises of technology and the convenience of owning a smartphone. So excited, I didn’t even wait to change out of my PJs or get my coffee before following the link.
I read Beth’s message with such excitement thinking, “Yes, this year I’m going to participate! This year I’m not going to miss…” I made it to the part of the post talking about an informational post from… December! “Good heavens, I am behind,” I thought. I tried to click on the link to the other post… it errored out.
NOOOOOO! “There’s is nothing smart about you!” I hissed at my phone, The change in tone feeling quite appropriate in the moment. All the while, I’m trying to remind myself that this tiny little device is “going to space”, after all, to retrieve information for me. Deep breath, calm down. “Maybe your first memory verse should be about turning your “cares” over to the Lord,” my conscience convicted.
“Maybe I do need that coffee”, I replied. So, I went off in search sustenance and my laptop.
I tried to reach the blog from the email link… error. Evidently, I snapped at my phone for something out of its control. So sorry. I ended up typing the blog url into the browser and the “home” page came up with the post at the top. Halleluiah! I skimmed down to find the link to the December informational post. Click.
Oh my gosh, Lord help me not to throw my laptop across the room. I scrolled down the home page hoping maybe the December post was still there… and it was. Glory, Glory! I’m reading… Looks good… I can still participate… and then I see the 24 hour time frame to post your verse. My heart dropped. I looked at the clock, it was a few minutes past 8:00 AM MST. I had missed the window by minutes. And then I thought, “Wait! It’s still before 8 somewhere in the continental US.” Yes, I could still play. I went back to the “verse 1” post to leave a comment with my “verse numero uno” like all the other precious Siestas, most of whom, no doubt, weren’t freaking out because they had posted yesterday… oh how I want to be on the Siesta team… I promise I’m usually on time for things… I clicked on the link to open the comments… and you guessed it…
I looked to the heavens and implored of the Lord a pitiful “Why”?! Then I frantically typed out a message pleading for help from LPM blog tech support, sent it into cyberspace, and padded off to the shower to get ready for my hair appointment. My children were none the wiser as they worked on their lessons. All of this drama occurred in my head… well, with some silent arm waving for good measure, but fortunately, the dining room table was hidden from their view.
I thought about how silly I was to let this frustrate me so much. I wasn’t able to get back to my computer till after lunch (definitely not 8 AM on the West coast now). While waiting for my stylist, I got the standard, “we’ll answer your message as soon as we can” message from LPM on my phone. By no means I was upset with them, and it certainly wasn’t their fault I was entire day late seeing the post in the first place. Sigh. I decided that if God wanted me to be a Siesta, I would get another opportunity.
After lunch, I thought I would try again (much calmer now), and it worked. I was able to post. Yes, I could feel horribly guilty for being late, but as you all know, I’m “letting go” these days. Progress, not perfection. Of course, I’ll set a reminder for the 15th so I can post my next verse on time, but for now, I’m just utterly thrilled to be joining the 2015 Siesta Scripture Memory Team. Now I just need to make the spiral. I feel a little like Ralphie from “A Christmas Story”, so excited about his “secret decoder pin”, which meant he was part of Little Orphan Annie’s secret club. SSMT isn’t secret, but I’m excited to work on my official memory verse spiral nonetheless! I’m not able to walk very far right now (another story), so the husband is getting supplies for me at the store. Once I get it made, I’ll post about it 🙂