I’ve been trying to motivate myself to get back on track with eating better since I fell off the wagon on February 13th. The plan was to resume on Monday (Feb 24th), but I didn’t.
Then, Wednesday morning I woke up feeling absolutely horrible. I was down most of the day and only got up to use the restroom and do my 3 mile indoor walk (which was torture, but hey, keeping the streak alive).
When I woke up Thursday morning feeling much the same way, I started thinking I’d just wait till the next Monday to work on the food because I didn’t feel like dealing with it. As I lay in bed, trying to make myself get up, I received a text from a friend asking if I had started back on Monday (I had told her at the memorial that was my plan) – oops. I fessed up of course. I thought about telling her I’d changed my mind and would start next week, but I just couldn’t bring myself to type that. It felt like I was giving up again.
Barb Raveling’s “I’ll Start Tomorrow” chapter from I Deserve a Donut (and other lies that make you eat) echoed in my head. A battle waged. Would I concede defeat?
I knew could do something that day to move me back in the right direction nutritionally. Last week I read Mastering Diabetes by Cyrus Khambatta and Robby Barbaro. I have been following the “mindful diabetic” (Robby) for a while on Instagram. His meals are so simple, his enthusiasm is contagious, his exercise regimen is inspiring, and it’s nice to see a diabetic who is thriving.
You may wonder why I would read this book? Diabetes runs in my family – both sides – all “types”. I was a gestational diabetic (delivered five big babies) and it’s highly likely I’m headed for type 2 (if I’m not there already).
I’m sure I’ll discuss this book more because I’m one of those nerdy people who finds the operations of the human body insanely fascinating. I LOVED all of the detailed explanations about cells and insulin and case studies. Plus, I do believe in their program.
Anyway, a suggestion which really resonated with me was to just start with breakfast and make-over that meal for seven days in a row before moving to lunch. Ironically, I did this many, many, many years ago before I ever read the idea in a book, and it does work if you can be patient with yourself.
I decided that was the thing I was going to do – prepare a breakfast according to the “Mastering Diabetes” guidelines. Of course, since I’d already implemented intermittent fasting (which they add about 3 weeks into their program), I wondered, “Can I call it breakfast if I’m not eating till almost noon?”
I suppose I can call it anything I want. Besides, if breakfast stands for “break fast”, I suppose it applies regardless of what time I eat my first meal of the day. I tried to load up my serving bowl with whatever I had in the house which qualified.
YUM… and I instantly felt more energized than I have lately. Then, I ended up eating “lunch” around 3PM, and it was within the guidelines too (mostly oranges). Dinner? It was not within the guidelines; however, I didn’t get take-out and I finished by 7PM. So, that was another win.
Unfortunately, at around 10PM I could no longer take the horrible migraine which began to creep in at 8PM and I ended up eating again. I refuse to beat myself up over this. I did what I felt like I needed to do at the time and I’m hopeful this will improve if I keep pressing forward. Since I didn’t eat till noon on Friday, I still had a 14 hour fasting window, which I am perfectly happy with.
I don’t know how many days I’ll just focus on “breakfast” in the food arena, but I do know I plan to keep “showing up”. Besides, the slight changes I’ve made since Monday, coupled with the walking habit I’ve been building since January 1st, have resulted in a reduction of 3.2 pounds on the scale in 4 days (weighed Friday morning). I’m headed in the right direction, thank you, Jesus!
So, until tomorrow, I pray you’ll join me in doing what we can today and not get hung up on meal names or perfection. It’s “Leap Day”, make it count!