I’m actually surprised that I have made it 5 days into this thing without barrelling ahead to the end. I think I’m distracted by trying to wait till I’m hungry and then trying to eat without distractions.
There seemed to be a lot packed into this little day. I loved today’s focus on grace, which I found interesting after yesterday’s struggle to accept it in the “food/body image” department.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (NIV)
Ladies, He loves us. His grace is sufficient indeed! I feel like a need a moment just to let that wash over me. And then she adds one of my favorite passages:
Listen, O daughter, consider and give ear; Forget your people and your father’s house. The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your Lord. ~ Psalm 45:10-11 (KJV)
Little girls dream of someone being enthralled by their beauty… isn’t God just amazing (sigh). I’ve spent so much time in an “endless striving that results in a lack of peace and a lack of progress” (Thin Within p. 47). We are new creations in Christ, but we walk about like we’re still in prison. And why not, the world tells us we’re frumpy and “not enough”.
Mirror, Mirror Exercise
Oh my goodness, this exercise is one of the reasons I’m glad I preview the night before what we’ll be asked to do the next day. I had some extra time to process this one and decide, “Yes, I will do it.” I felt like God had to talk me into it, but I did the exercise. And you know what? When you start saying how thankful you are for the wonder of what your body can do… well, the jiggly bits and stretch marks start to fade into the background.
Now, I don’t know how often I’ll do this exercise, but I think it should probably be a regular occurance for me.
Overall, I took away from today’s lesson that I need to stop striving for the world’s goals. I need to accept that God’s grace is sufficient… and that I truly am “fearfully and wonderfully made.”
I’m still working on 0-5 eating. I ended up in front of the TV again tonight… eating. It was no where near the mindless eat fest I could have been, but it was still distracted, non-hunger eating. I’m going to turn that over to the Lord. I’m hopeful that He will show me what’s going on there and why this is such a difficult habit to break.