I’m a recovering perfectionist, and as such, I still get really annoyed when I can’t follow a plan perfectly. I’ve had setbacks during this season of marathon training, and just when I thought I was on the other side… enter another one. I am amazed that something so small as a toe could wreak so much havoc on my training. I don’t even know what is wrong with it, but wearing a closed toe shoe makes me want to scream. Add some impact and, oh my stars, just kill me now.
I’m also rather stubborn, so you know there is no way I’m skipping workouts. Instead, I adapted them. The day before our 16 mile long run, I rode the spin bike at the gym. Miraculously I was able to do the final 16 mile run on the trail (thank you, Lord), but now my toe is swelled up again. I’ve had to get a little creative because I couldn’t wear a shoe the day after that long run. My legs felt fine, so, I walked/jogged in bare feet with Leslie Sansone for six miles. Today, still too painful for impact, I biked two straight hours at the gym, attempting to mimic the “strength” run on the schedule. The toe still hurt during these workouts, but not nearly as bad as running on it. My concern is if I attempt to run, and favor it at all, then I could potentially cause another injury in the process. I guess I figure it’s better to purposefully adapt the workout than allow my body to unconsciously adapt my running gait to avoid pain.
Of course, I’ve never run a marathon before, and I have no idea how all of this will translate to my performance on the day of the race… provided I even make it to the start line. Still, I’m taking comfort in Deena Kastor’s story in Spirit of the Marathon. She sustains an injury that doesn’t allow full weight/impact on her foot. She continues to train, but adapts it to pool running and stationary bikes. Now, I don’t have access to one of those pool treadmills she uses in the movie, but I do have access to bikes (and a lap pool). I don’t want to spoil the ending of the movie for you, so I’ll just say that Deena does make it to the marathon. Obviously she’s a professional, Olympic, record-holding athlete and I’m a slow mom-lete running for a “finisher” t-shirt at my first marathon, but I’m encouraged by her story nonetheless.
I’d love to have some kind of guarantee that I’ll get to run this marathon, and that it will be a pleasant experience (I didn’t say “easy”), but I know that I’m not going to get that kind of reassurance. What I do have is faith, which is a different kind of reassurance. Only God knows how this thing is going to turn out, and unless He stops me entirely, I’ll use minor injuries to exercise the faith of this adapting runner girl.
“We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.” ~ Romans 8:28 (AMP)