I woke without an alarm again on Day 27. This morning’s dread was about today being a really long day. “Lord, help me,” was my cry. As you’ll see in my food log, “long” ended up being replaced with severe detox.

One thing you simply cannot deny while eating this way is the flood of emotions. The layers of my heart are peeled back. I see all of the scars, and for a moment I’m angry. For a moment I think, “why didn’t God protect me?”… “Why didn’t someone come to my defense?” And then it occurs to me, that I would not feel the way that I do about so many things had the protection been there. These hurts caused me to feel more deeply. The very thing that the enemy tried to attack through things outside of my control: my emotions, my sensitivity, my passion, those are the things that are all the more magnified now.

Yes, I am still on the road to healing, and not everyone understands that. Some people think healing is instantaneous… and maybe it is for them, but for those of us who have layer upon layer to dissect, we need patient understanding. Fortunately, God knows how deep to go at any one time, so while the tears flow with each layer, I know my tears are safe with Him.

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What I read: Genesis 43-45

What I ate:

• Breakfast – 3 oranges + 7 oranges juiced with electric citrus juicer
• Pre-TKD – 3 banana
• Post-TKD – 4 oranges juiced
• Lunch – 7 bananas
• Dinner – this is where the detox happened… began drinking apple juice and writhing in pain, nausea, fever, chills…
  

What I did: TaeKwonDo Class (55 min) + 1 hour in skates teaching preschoolers how to skate.

Here are the notes I made regarding my symptoms throughout Day 27:

• slowed digestion (gas, abdominal pain, bloating)
  
• headaches – detox
  
• puffy hands, feet, and face
  
• sinus congestion
  
• dry/itchy eyes, skin, and scalp
  
• acne
  
• aching muscles and muscle spasms – returned with detox
  
• foggy brain
• irritability
  
• mood swings
  
• blood sugar fluctuations – this came back with a vengeance thanks to the detox!
  
• fatigue
  
• unable to sleep well
  
• unquenchable thirst
  
• cravings – None today
  
• chest pain
• cold sores – last one 1/13/2013
  
• kidney stones – eliminated when we went vegan Oct 2011