I woke up the morning of Day 13 wishing I did not have to get out of bed that early. We stayed up entirely too late last night because we watched Atlas Shrugged (part 1, been reading the book) and then Downton Abbey. We’re participating in a church-wide fast starting today, and our family has decided to fast from television. So we O.D.’d on it last night lol. Oh my, it’s Monday. More of our normal activities resumed today, with more starting back next week. Deep Breath.

Today was not my favorite day. I didn’t get enough sleep (yes, my own fault). I stressed out a bit over when to eat today with TKD class added back in. Detox symptoms rushed in about an hour after the workout. I spent an hour writing about a topic that was not the topic I was supposed to focus on. I spent fifteen minutes trying to clean banana out of my new large glass, and when I placed it into the dishwasher it shattered. I thought, all day, about how I wouldn’t be able to watch TV tonight, but when the evening came and I was feeling ill… and I started feeling sorry for myself… I threw a fit all over the floor of the Husband’s office for probably a good five minutes. He laughed and laughed while I rolled around like a big spoiled brat, whining (trying not to laugh) about everything. “I want chili, and french fries. And I want to snuggle up with a big blanket, eat, and watch TV.” He asked me what I wanted to watch. I said “does it matter?” He laughed completely unable to take me seriously, “but there isn’t anything on. Why do you want to watch it?” Of course, I couldn’t help but laugh too because it sounded absolutely ridiculous when I replied in a pitifully small voice, “because TV is my friend.” I’m going to hope that this was the “detox”, and my desperate desire for “comfort food” talking.

So, we decided to play a game (Chicken Foot) with the kids during dinner. I cooked spaghetti (first time I’ve made spaghetti squash) for the family, while the girls prepared a salad for them. Then, I fixed my big salad. The 8 year old made the dressing (darling helper). Unfortunately, she used the seeded grapes in the dressing, I didn’t realize this until I’d poured it over the entire thing. I couldn’t eat it. I didn’t make another salad. I was just too spent. I wasn’t trying to be a martyr about it, I was just tired. I didn’t want to spend another second in the kitchen preparing food for anybody. I didn’t want to spend another moment thinking about food either. I knew that what I thought I wanted wasn’t good for me, and I wouldn’t choose it, but that brought little comfort.

I feel like, along with detox comes a tangled mess of emotions. I’m raw alright. My soul feels bared. It’s like taking away a child’s security blanket… or pacifier. They scream for a bit, and then they must learn how to cope. I did some “screaming” today, but I sure am thankful for that darling, laughing Husband of mine, and for a Savior who offers comfort to those who trust in Him.

My glands are swollen again, my throat is scratchy, I’m tired, soooo thirsty, and I just want to crawl into bed.

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What I read: Job 35-37

What I ate:

• Breakfast – Ten oranges juiced with electric citrus juicer
• Lunch – 10 Bananas blended with 8oz of water. My new glass broke when I put it into the dishwasher today 😦 Back to the King Kong cup tomorrow – boo hiss.
  
• Dinner – 1/2 large watermelon… if I eat anything else, I’ll update it tomorrow.
  

What I did: TaeKwonDo (50 min)

Here are the notes I made regarding my symptoms throughout Day 13:

• slowed digestion (gas, abdominal pain, bloating)
  
• headaches
  
• puffy hands, feet, and face (thank you, salt)
  
• sinus congestion – none
  
• dry/itchy eyes, skin, and scalp
  
• acne – clearing, almost gone
  
• aching muscles and muscle spasms
  
• foggy brain
• irritability
  
• mood swings – better
  
• blood sugar fluctuations
  
• fatigue – detox hitting again
  
• unable to sleep well – slept well.
  
• unquenchable thirst (again, thank you, salt) – horrible!!
  
• cravings – thought about eating cooked food just so that the detox would stop. I didn’t though. I also want “tv” lol.